Saturday, May 19, 2007

Free Will -- What's the Point of It if God Already Knows What We'll Do?

I haven't been consumed by this question for two days now, and maybe writing out my reasoning will help me to come to terms with some kind of answer. What's the point of human beings having free will if God is omnicient? So I logged on to the internet to look for some answer, and most of what I read involves a related argument... namely, that if God already knows what we'll choose, then how are we really choosing it? Aren't we then following a foreordained script like a bunch of agreeable puppets?

Well, I don't feel God manipulating me like a puppet. I make choices. As a result, I don't see the rationale of this question; mine is step to the side. What is the point of free will if God already knows what we're going to choose? If he's really omnicient, then he knows if we're going to mess up, he knows if we're going to triumph, and he knows when a piano's going to fall on us... why bother giving us free will at all... just to watch us twist in the wind?

I think... when we look backwards in time, we see clearly that some events are just facts. The Kennedy assassination. The American Revolution. The birth of Prince William and the death of Diana. My move to Texas or the end of my marriage. They are definite and immutable. How we see them in retrospect, or the power or impact they have over us, can change. Before my parents had me, the idea of a baby was just an idea... now, almost-36 years later, it's as though I always was. And I was. Always.

I think... for God, what's going to happen in the future is like us when we look at the past. It IS. We as people can look only backwards, but God can see everything in both directions. God knows, just as a mother knows her children, what we are capable of doing.

It's like... there's the person God means for me to be. Then there's the person I am. And then there's the person who has given up. That is what's up to me. God knows how far I can go if I trust the destiny that awaits me with the spiritual support that's available to all of humanity. He knows what will happen to me if I play it safe. And he has another path for me if I just stop trying altogether. Of course, he knows this for all of the people everywhere, and our paths cross, come together, diverge, and end, all in a great big concert through which he weaves himself, the chance to know him, and the chance to exceed our own expectations and perceptions of life on earth or off of it.

Does God micro-know or care about my free-will decisions? Free will gives us a chance to become the people we're meant to be, so there's no need for anyone looking over our shoulders or pressuring us. But God knows what's going on. He is always there. We have the gift of prayer (or meditating, or whatever anyone wants to call it) to connect us with the power of the universe (that sounds dramatic, but I don't know what else to call it) and to call upon those powers to guide our thinking and our decision making. But as for the decisions themselves... well, they're always made. I don't mean already made, but always. Just like I was always going to be here. Just like my cat was always going to go away. Just like a mother knows that her children will die (though hopes she won't be around for it), knowing that they will someday die doesn't negate the value of having them, loving them, teaching them, and raising them.

Perhaps in the face of God always knowing our destinies, that process of living that destiny is important for us to undergo. It's a step on a progression that we don't as yet understand. After all, if God knows... and I believe the design of the universe is bigger, wider, thicker, deeper, and more complicated than humans can understand... then God knows. There's way more to everything than science or religion can let us see.

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